A teensy weensy upd8 since my attachment...

Hi everybody! (esp my fan club)

1. Ok, I've started my attachment at this sec sch called Bowen Sec. It's an attachment I've had to do 'cos MOE pays for my school fees and gives me cash, so these three weeks, I'm required to work for them for free. Lol. Actually, it's not really work la, more like a training programme put together for the load of us. So far, God's been good, and it's been real fun.

2. Besides that, my usual routine of tuitions etc has been going on, plus my business. Wah, really not ez. The business is like a baby, I can't leave it hanging, but have to take as much care of it as I can. So I've been doing so. Wanna thank God for making the impossible a possible. I don't know how to explain it. When I first looked at the stats, it was real bad. Like unsellable. Then left the matter to the Lord, received new faith, and after 3-4 days of prayer looked at the figures again. Suddenly, something clicked. It's possible! :D

3. Thank God for Ws's call yesterday. That girl will not be reading this, but she has no idea how much her call encouraged me that day. Somehow, I needed reassurance that my work for God means something to the people I minister to. And I felt very very reassured by her call yesterday.

4. I think the one need in my life has been a need for security, for acceptance for who I am, and I think me being who I am, this kind of blessed assurance can come only from God. Felt this today as I was going home from school (Bowen) and thinking on the day's events. And I think sometimes subconsciously I can perform what I do for the sake of receiving assurance, hoping to get some kind of encouragement for what I am doing. That's not very healthy. I need to place my boast in Christ alone, not in my gifts, talents, and a whole load of superficial stuff. And I know I need encouragement. I will find that encouragement by humbling myself before people, and receive the encouragement that comes from them and from the Lord. Amen.

5. Some more notes on the ministry. I felt so broken on Mon-Tue. I don't know why. I had an excellent time of experiencing the Lord and of moving in His Spirit, but I felt very empty. Jan says it's a spiritual attack. I agree. When I took arms and rebuked the stronghold of doubt, I received more and more strength from the Lord. When Jan talked to me that night, I felt more strengthened, though still broken. And when the Lord just gave me more grace on Tue, I felt a breakthrough. A breakthrough that happens because of faith and not because of other feelings.

6. Some more notes on work: I hope to come to that place where I am fully reliant on God for success at work. I am heading there, and I will reach there soon. Amen.

7. (sings) Let not the wise man boast in his wisdom
Nor let the strong man boast in his strength
Let not the rich man boast in his riches
But let the faithful come and give thanks

To the one who made us
The one who saved us

I will boast in the Lord my God!
I will boast in the One who's worrrrrr-thy
I will boast in the Lord my God!
I will boast in the One who's wor-thyyyyyy

He's worthy!

(Low tone)
I will place my trust in Christ alone
I will place my trust in Christ alone

(One octave higher)
I will place my trust in Christ alone!
I will place my trust in Christ alone!

I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One who's worthy!
I will boast in the Lord my God
I will boast in the One...

Who's worthy. =)

8. I wrote a poem today, but I shall not upload it 'cos it's one of those reminiscent poems which can lead to a lot of misunderstandings if not properly understood (the last part of that sentence was SO duhh). Ya. So I shall not upload it.

9. And yes: I broke a new record today! 15 laps continuous freestyle! Wooohooohooo!