Today...I have learnt:
That in many ways my relationship with God mirrors that of my dad and mine. Every time my dad and I get together, we always have stuff to talk about that involves getting something done: whether it's money and credit cards, calling up blah blah blah, settling insurance, etc. We hardly ever talk nonsense and joke around and talk about our day and meaningless stuff. The closest we get to talking about trivia, is talking about ministry (and our latest discoveries in the LORD. HAHAHA.)
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. Me and my dad, we have a good relationship. And I always enjoy being with him, 'cos there's just so much to learn, and learning all this stuff is real fun. But today I realised that maybe it's just imbalanced. We should be able to just chill out with each other. And talk crap. And laugh at meaningless stuff.
How did I discover all that? Well, when I was talking to God today and reading His word, I started interceding, then thanking God, and then rummaging thru the Scriptures and meditating on the ministry etc. Then halfway thru recording my thoughts on the prophetic I caught myself and realised: hey, how come this seems like a ministry meeting? It's so intense, and there's always an agenda to get over and done with in a short period of time, and it's always about how do I get the ministry to get better, how to solve this problem, how to get more giftings and improve on the giftings, how much more God has in store for me....so much SERIOUS stuff. And then I thought about heaven...how is it that next time God's going to be the Father that I'm daily with, and we're gonna hang around together, and how is it we won't be talking about ministry and giftings anymore, but we're finally gonna be talking about us. And that made me realise: oh dear, I'm treating God like my dad. I thought I would have escaped that, but I didn't-- I talk to my God always with something meaningful/important in mind; it's always a xiong xiong mtg, it's always "God, we've got this blah blah important thing to do for you, bless us, empower us, fill us, to get the JOB done." The idea of an exciting conversation with God is a new theological discovery. HAha. So much in common with talking with my dad.
And I think God wants to bring me to a bigger focus on him. First priority: that in every way I will be changed to be like Jesus. I've said this so many times it's almost like a creed and an anthem now. But maybe now, the next priority: to enjoy the relationship with Jesus and my Heavenly Father. To be able to ask Him, how's His day: what have I been up to, what's been funny, oh did you know so-and-so has that terrible haircut, laugh and joke with Him, and just slack with a Milo-peng. At least when I go Heaven, there'll be some inside jokes waiting for me there.
AND, to make sure I've a more balanced relationship with my earthly father. Next time, whenever I see him, first thing we talk about is NEVER going to be money, credit cards, theology, and taxi. Probably just wanna spend some time talking crap and really really unimportant and funny stuff. Heh. As cheesy and as forced as it sounds, time to take out the "1001 clean joke book".
I can feel your smirk from here. Remember, some of us are just not naturally funny. :P
